RED SONIA 126 SO HARD TO SAY GOODBYE
So hard to say goodbye...
It was so long ago... when I bought my house in Cleveland, and after moving here from California and deciding that I need to be here for my mom who had moved here a couple of years before me, I figured well if I'm going to be here in Cleveland I may as well make my life whole and get myself a dog. I've had dogs my whole adult life and they are a pleasure for me. I never had kids so my dogs are my kids...I went to a local Humane Society that I heard really good things about. The Geauga Humane Society in Novelty, Ohio...so I took a drive out there on a beautiful summer day and found my Twister. Damn...what a beautiful little pup he was at 7 weeks old. I wanted to take him home right away...but they told me I have to wait. The GHS has a program where they allow kids who have disabilities to come in and pick their pups and take them home. My boy was on that list. A little girl came in and had named him Indy and everything. She was going to make him her own. She had cancer...I felt so bad but it became such a competition. They told me I could not take him unless she was unable to give him a home...I wanted so badly for it to fall through for her so I could take him home. A couple of weeks went by and they gave me a call and said he is mine!!!! I raced to go out and get him and he cried and cried all the way home. Like a baby being taken from His mother, this little boy had no idea what was coming his way. The years went on and he became my best friend. I walked him every day and talked to him and he truly became my companion....what do you do 13 years later when you lose your best friend???
You get a pup knowing, but hope that it won't be the case, that with the knowledge that you will outlive that animal and have to put him/her down at one point. Because it is rare that they pass on their own… they hold on for us as long as they can. Anything they can do to let us know that they are grateful… grateful for giving them the time of their life. But do they know... did he (my boy Twister) realize he had actually given me the time of my life! Every day coming home to that happy smile, that gratitude for a simple bone and loving kiss. Did he know that he was as important if not more so to me than I was to him...how easy to think that all I needed to do was give him food and water and that was all he needed to love me back. Take him for long walks and treat him like a friend.
I just had the unfortunate experience of putting down yet another true friend that gave me so many good years of his life and took many good years of mine to create joy and happiness that we would both share for so very long. Twister was adopted at the age of 7 weeks and at 13 I am crying by his side as I know what I have known for so long but would never let anyone tell me...that he is ridden with cancer and now one of those tumors that I have been watching grow for the last two or three years has grown and now burst and filled my boys belly with blood making me have to make "that decision" to have emergency surgery for a 3-6 month extended life or let my boy go now in peace and be thankful for our time that we have shared.
Morbid... maybe. But what a good loyal friend and to think that I would be putting him through surgery and all that crap was not something I would ever do to him, let alone ask that someone else make that same decision for me...peace. That is all we ask for.
I am thankful for the time that this boy gave to me. He was my best friend at my side for so many years. He gave me joy every day and I will miss him and feel him there at my side forever. Memories are a wonderful thing that keeps us going after all else is gone. He made me realize that life is so much more than "Things"! He accepted me for who I am and never judged. He lived and helped me live our lives together to the fullest. After all...that is what we have at the end...memories...great ones! Thanks Twister. I loved you for all that you were and all that you gave to me.
"I am your partner, your friend, your protector...your dog! You are my life, my leader. I will be yours, faithful and true, ‘til the last beat of my heart." They truly live for us without knowing what they do to make our lives whole...be at peace my boy. And thank you for your companionship for so many years. Peace... Red